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You're Mine	By : xXxHeiress101xXx Category: Bleach > Yaoi - Male/Male > Byakyua/Ichigo Views: 11992 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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A/N: Okay, here's the next chapter! XD please review!

Warning- Depression and mentions of rape

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November 24

Ichigo felt like he was floating, if it weren't for the headache, he would have assumed he was dead. Was it really too much to ask to just disappear? Apparently, yes, it was. No matter how much he longed for the darkness to just overlap him and take him away; it wouldn’t happen, not now anyways.

He slowly opened one of his eyes, only to close it and re-open it. Apparently, he wasn’t still dreaming like he thought he was. Byakuya's head was lying in his lap as he held his hand. It was strange, why would his husband go through the trouble of sleeping in his lap?! It didn't make any sense!

"Good Morning, Lieutenant Kurosaki." Captain Unohana greeted him from the door. "I'm glad that you're finally awake." She gave him a small smile and came inside to check on him. "You gave us quite a scare."

He remained silent as he finally got a good look at her. He could see that she was very tired, she had bags under her eyes and looked as though she hadn't slept in days. The question was, why?

She nodded as she finished her check up and looked down at Byakuya. "I'm glad that Captain Kuchiki has finally gotten some rest, though I'm sure it was unintentional." She turned to Ichigo and sighed. "You had a very bad nightmare and it almost killed you."

Ichigo blinked at that revelation and raised his eyebrow. He didn't know nightmares could kill people. "I can assure you, Ichigo, it wasn’t the actual nightmare that almost killed you, though." She explained and looked right into his eyes. "It was your will to live, or lack thereof. I don’t know what happened exactly in that nightmare of yours, but it was enough to knock you out for two days." She closed her eyes. "Even your children had to be moved to Kurosaki Manor, since both Captain Kuchiki and yourself couldn’t take care of them. Lieutenant, I understand that you're traumatized by what happened and I can't blame you for being depressed. However, please reconsider and try your best to live." With that, she turned around and left.

Honestly, he didn't know what to make of his request, but as he looked down at his husbands head, he froze. He failed to see the first time that Byakuya had tears stains on one of his cheeks and that made him even more confused. Did the Kuchiki Lord actually cry?!

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Ichigo took a deep breath as he watched some soul reapers passing by outside his window. Truthfully, he didn't know what he should be feeling right about now. He wasn’t like some people thought he was, he knew that if, and that was definitely an if, Byakuya was crying, it was, because of him. He just didn't understand why. He had betrayed him, and now he didn't think things could possibly could get any worse between them. Was there any chance left to fix his marriage?

He tensed when he felt movement on his lap and turned towards Byakuya with a blank expression on his face. He could just feel the concern that was pouring out of his husbands grey eyes.

"Ichigo, you're awake." Byakuya stated with relief in his voice. "I'm so glad, I thought I lost you."

The younger soul reaper felt his throat constrict as he closed his eyes. "Byakuya…" He didn't understand the concern, how could he?! He had sex with the most vilest man ever! How could his husband still care about him?!

The orange haired boy nearly jumped out of his skin as Byakuya suddenly hugged him. "Ichigo, my Ichigo, I don’t know what I would have done if I lost you."

Ichigo felt a pang in his heart when Byakuya said those words, and let a tear fall down from his right eyes as he slowly pushed him away. God, how he wished he could keep hugging him, but he knew that he couldn’t; the feel of Byakuya's body against him kept reminding him of Aizen grinding against him that one horrid night. It was too painful to relive!

"I understand." His husband replied simply as he slowly let go of Ichigo and stood up. "Someday, when you're ready." He turned towards the door and walked out, shattering Ichigo's heart all over again as he more tears started to flow freely.

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What was it about him that everyone want to protect and cling to him? Ichigo had never understood why Byakuya kept him on a short leash. And even now that the other actually had forgiven him, he… he felt like shit! Why did the older man forgive him?! He was filthy, he cheated on him for god sakes!

How could the older man just forgive him for that?!

How could anyone ever forgive him for what he did?!

Before when he thought Byakuya hated him, it hurt, but he knew that he deserved that hate. But now, now that Byakuya had actually forgiven him, he felt like he didn't deserve to be forgiven or given love. He didn't want the older man's love, he didn't deserve it at all.

He wished that he knew what the raven haired man was thinking.

Ichigo looked towards his left when he heard a knock and sighed when Captain Unohana came inside with a chart in her hands. "How are you feeling, Ichigo?"

He didn't really want to answer her, but seeing as she wasn’t going to leave him alone until he did; he looked down at his blanket with dull eyes and replied quietly. "Fine."

She nodded as she gave him a pitying smile. "And how are you feeling inside?"

"…" The orange haired boy bit his lip and turned towards the window without giving her an answer.

"I see." She sighed and looked down at her chart. "I don’t really know if I should be telling you this right now, but as your healer, I can't keep this from you." She took a deep breath and frowned. "Ichigo, when you were unconscious, we had to take some blood tests from you to find out if anything was wrong; and we found something."

What?! What did they find?! It didn't sound like it was something good, perhaps he had contracted some disease and was going to die? If that was the case, then he would welcome it with open arms. He didn't really want to live right now, he didn't want to see the pitying look everyone kept giving him; and most of all, he didn't want to see Byakuya's loving face.

Captain Unohana hesitated for a moment, before finally telling him. "Ichigo… you're pregnant."

Ichigo's eyes widened as he whirled to look at her with shock and horror in his eyes. He was pregnant?! He knew that it was completely impossible for him to be pregnant with Byakuya, considering he hadn't had sex with the older man in months; that only left one person, Aizen. Off all the things he had been expecting her to say, he had never even thought about this being a possibility!

Damn it! He should have known, the bastard wanted him pregnant after all. "Does Byakuya know?!" He asked urgently as he started to hyperventilate. Oh my god, what the hell was he supposed to do?! And Byakuya… Oh dear lord!

The older woman looked at the ground and nodded. "I'm afraid so, seeing as he is your husband, I cannot keep this from him." She hesitated before sighing again and walking out of the room, she couldn’t bear to look at the devastated look on the boys face.

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Ichigo stared dully out the window as he unconsciously rubbed his stomach, thinking about his… baby. Honestly, he wasn’t sure what was going to happen next, but he knew one thing, even if Aizen was the father of this baby, Ichigo was still it's mother. He wasn’t going to give it up, even if he just found out about it; he loves this baby, just like he loves Aoi and Akira.

"-and I told your father that he was just getting old!" He heard his mother laugh and turned towards her. He forgot that she was even there, but then again, he sometimes forgets when his other friends come to visit him.

"Mom" He called to her lowly, making Masaki pause and look at him questioningly. "I think my marriage with Byakuya is over."

The brown haired woman blinked in confusion and frowned. "What are you talking about, Ichigo? You love Byakuya, don’t you?"

The younger looked down at the bed and sighed. "I do, I love him very much, however, even that is not enough." He closed his eyes, willing his tears away as he clenched his jaw. "Mom, I'm pregnant."

"…" When the older woman said nothing, he looked up and furrowed his eyebrows at the weird look she was giving him. "…Sweetheart, isn't that a good thing? Why would Lord Kuchiki be upset about that?"

"…" It was Ichigo's turn to be silent as he sighed deeply. No, of course she didn't know that the baby's father wasn’t Byakuya. He was pretty sure, though, that she knew that he had sex with Aizen. "It's not Byakuya's baby." He admitted it harshly.

Masaki looked down at his stomach as realization dawned on her. "Oh, I see." Ichigo could tell by the sound of her voice that she was concerned. Well, who could blame her? "…I still don’t think that your marriage is necessarily over, that baby is still a part of you; I'm sure that Lord Kuchiki will love and care for it like his own babies."

Perhaps, this was why he dreaded telling her this? His mother was always an idealist, she was always thinking of only the best outcomes, it was one of her greatest strengths, as well as her weaknesses. "No, Byakuya knows about this, he's probably going to ask me to… abort it. Even to save my marriage, I will never give up my baby."

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Ichigo laid down on his bed with his eyes squeezed shut. Today was just so hard for him. So many things happened in so little time. It was hard to take everything at one time. He wasn’t sure that he could pull it off and live through this. However, he knew one thing, no matter how painful it was going to be for him, he would try to stay alive. It was for his babies, all three of them.

He didn't expect Byakuya to take responsibility for his latest baby; he would be asking too much of him. But at the same time, it was his baby; and he would be damned if he treated it any differently than the twins. Everything was for his babies, he had to protect them no matter the cost!

He sighed again as he snuggled into his bed sheets. He felt numb, he felt like a hole just opened up and swallowed his heart. Could he even feel pain and be numb at the same time?! He didn't know, but that’s how he felt right now. And as much as he wanted to disappear and die, he was responsible for three lives now; three beautiful lives.

In all honesty, he hoped that everything would turn out okay. With that thought in his head, he closed his eyes, ready to fall asleep.

"I'm sorry, Captain." He heard Captain Unohana's voice outside his door. What was going on. "I can heal physical wounds, but I can't heal his psychological wounds. It's just not that simple. Furthermore, he has lost his will to lose; it is very dangerous for a soul reaper to lose his will, especially for one as strong as him. You know as well as I do that when a soul reaper loses his will to live, his spiritual pressure starts attacking him from the inside, causing even a simple nightmare to be very deadly."

"I understand, but isn't there a way to get his will back?" His husbands voice asked lowly. "Isn't there a way you keep him alive, just as you did?"

Captain Unohana sighed. "Yes, I can try; however, I can't heal the dead, Captain Kuchiki. One day, one of his nightmares might cause him to never wake up again, or even worse, kill him." He heard the older woman pause. "If you want his will to return, please just stay with him, even if it causes you great pain to watch him suffer, just being there for him might be enough." He bit his lip when he heard the footsteps fading as the door opened to reveal his husband.

"Ichigo?" He asked quietly as he walked over to his bed. Ichigo didn't answer him as he feigned sleep, making Byakuya sigh and sit down in one of the chairs next to him.

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