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You're Mine	By : xXxHeiress101xXx Category: Bleach > Yaoi - Male/Male > Byakyua/Ichigo Views: 11992 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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A/N: This chapter took me longer than I expected. For a while, Ichigo is going to be very depressed. This new arc won't be very long, but it's going to be very sad and angsty. But anyways, please R&R!

Warning- Depression, thoughts of suicide, and mentions of rape.

'talking'- Dreaming

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November 21

Ichigo woke up with a start and leaned over as he spilled his guts on the hospital floor. He has been throwing up for the last couple of days and it seemed that Captain Unohana was getting worried. He didn't know why, though; it was probably just a side effect from his depression or something.

He laid back down on the bed once he was done and groaned softly as he looked out the window with his dull brown eyes. Byakuya would probably throw a fit when he came back here, but then again he didn't particularly care at the moment. That man had been in here every day, since he was healed.

It wasn’t that he minded Byakuya being in here with him, but he knew that he was just here to see the twins, and not him. How could he want to see him after what he did?!

He clenched his jaw as tears threatened to come down his cheeks and squeezed his eyes shut. "Damn it!" He whispered harshly to himself.

"Talking to yourself?" His husband asked stoically as he walked into the room. Ichigo didn't turn or him, instead he looked back out the window as if he didn't hear the other. Though, if he did look, he would have seen concern in the older man's eyes.

But it was easier that way to pretend as if the older man wasn’t even there, for Ichigo anyways.

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Ichigo felt those slate gray eyes boring holes into him and sighed quietly. Why can't the bastard just leave him alone?! He knew that the older man hated him and the fact that he was always near him made Ichigo's heart clench.

He loved that cold soul reaper, but knowing that the feeling wasn’t mutual anymore, it broke his heart all over again!

The orange haired boy sighed and looked at Akira, he could see that Byakuya was holding Aoi. He needed to hold Akira, the twins were his only light at the moment and he didn't know what he would do without it.

He closed his eyes and sat up as he avoided looking at Byakuya. "Shh!" He whispered as he took the baby from the little bassinet and into his arms. His heart clenched as he looked at the baby's hair, it reminded him so much of Byakuya's. He closed his eyes as a tear escaped his eyes and kissed Akira's forehead.

Shit! Why couldn’t the older man leave him alone?! He was already hurt beyond repair, he didn't need more punishment! But then again, he did cheat on him. Perhaps this was revenge? In any case, he probably deserved it and much more.

Byakuya cleared his throat. "Ichigo, I need to tell you something." The older man began. "I'm not sure I should be telling you this, because of your state of mind; however I believe you should know this." He paused as Ichigo heard him put Aoi back into her bassinet. "Aizen's trial is being held today in Central 46. You should be happy to know that he will be sentenced today, I will be there when that happens in your place."

He waited for Ichigo to respond even a little, but when nothing came, he sighed and walked out of the room.

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Ichigo could ask himself why as he glared out the window. Why the hell was it that every time his friends came to visit him in here, they had to start fighting. Well, not all of his friends, just Renji and the guys from the 11^th division.

"Yeah?! Well, I don’t care! I was here first!" He heard Renji yell loudly with anger laced in his voice. "I'm his best friend!"

And of course, Ikkaku had to reply. "I don’t care either, Renji! This guy here, is strong, so it'll be a shame if he were to stay here forever and I wouldn’t get to fight him!"

"Yes, Renji, your possessiveness is very ugly." Yumichika added his two cents in. "You really should learn to share, you'd be much more beautiful if that were to happen."

He felt his eye twitch as Renji responded to them with some profanities. What. The. Fuck?! Didn't they know that there were babies in here?! Just how the hell did he always end up in situations like this?! Damn them! Why couldn’t they understand that he wanted to be alone?! He didn't want his friends or family visiting him. And most definitely didn't want Byakuya visiting him either. But apparently, it wasn’t up to him, it was up to Captain Unohana. He had the greatest respect for her, but come on! It's not like he was going to jump out a window or anything like that, not that it wasn’t tempting; but because that wouldn’t kill him at all.

He grit his teeth and turned to the others with a dull gleam in his eyes. "Shut up!" He said lowly and watched as the three tensed up and turned to him in confusion.

"What?" Renji asked as he raised his eyebrow.

"Get out, all of you!" Ichigo replied with a mean glare that could rival even his husbands. "I want to be alone!"

"But Ichigo-" The redhead began to protest, only to sigh when he saw his glare harden. "Fine, but you're going to have to explain this to both Captain Unohana and Captain Kuchiki." He warned him and turned to leave with the other two on his heel.

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Ichigo sighed in relief when he was finally alone. Captain Unohana thought that it would be a good idea for the twins to go outside for a little bit and since Byakuya was busy, Rukia volunteered, along with Renji. It wasn’t that he wanted the twins gone, he just needed some alone time to… think.

He closed his eyes and looked out the window with a broken expression on his face. He wanted to disappear, to just be sucked into a dark abyss for an eternity. Oh, how he wished to never wake up, to never see those disappointed slate gray eyes of his husband.

He squeezed his eyes shut when he felt tears slide down his cheeks. It was too much for him to handle, everyone thought that he was a strong person, but come on! He cheated on his very faithful husband! God, how he wished to redo it all.

Ichigo groaned and looked down at his arm where the IV was connected to his arm. Oh, how he longed to rip out that needle out of his arm and run it across both of his wrists. He could see it now, it would hurt, but it would also grant him his final wish. He wished to disappear, to fade away.

Was it a selfish reason? Most definitely! But at the moment, he didn't care. He felt numb and hollow most of the time, and the rest of the time, he just felt pain. It squeezing the life out of him, the life that he didn't want to continue.

It was so wrong! He knew that, but still… he couldn’t help, but imagine what it would be like to finally leave this world. To start anew and not have to worry whether his husband really hated him that much or it was all just in his head.

The orange haired boy clenched his fists and bit his lip as he choked on a sob. It too painful to think about and if he thought anymore on it right now, he knew that he wouldn’t be able to keep on living. He continued to sob, until exhaustion crept in and fell asleep as a pair of sad gray eyes watched him through the doorway.

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The first thing Ichigo saw as he looked around was darkness, pure and unadulterated darkness. He groaned and squeezed his eyes shut. It's the same dream, or should he say nightmare. He's had it every night since he came back to the Soul Society.

He felt tears slide down his cheeks as he waited for Aizen to show up again. As soon as he looked to his left, as always, Aizen showed up in all his glory.

"Hello, Ichigo." He greeted him with cold, malicious eyes. Ones that could petrify even the coldest of men. "Did you honestly think that the Soul Society can keep me locked up?!"

The younger didn't respond as he backed away from the other in fear. "No, please, leave me alone!"

"You're a fool, Ichigo!" The brown haired man hissed and narrowed his eyes as he walked over to him slowly. "I'm going to kill everyone here, but before I do that, I'm going to have some fun with you. After all, I can't kill without my queen at my side."

Ichigo felt a shiver go down his spine as nausea set in. "Oh, god!" Why couldn’t he have a break from all this shit?! Why did he have to face this…this monster?! It didn't make sense to him.

He felt bile rise up his throat as Aizen reached out for him. "NO!" He yelled loudly as his eyes widened considerably.

"That's right, Ichigo, this is your punishment." A deep, accusing voice said behind him.

Ichigo slowly turned to look behind himself in horror. "No… I-I… I didn't mean to do it! Please, Byakuya, please believe me! I don’t want anyone, but you!"

Byakuya glared down at him and sneered. "Well, it's too late now, you did it, you had sex with not only someone else, but also our enemy." The older man's eyes hardened as he flickered towards Aizen. "I regret marrying you, it was the biggest mistake I have made in my entire life. Do with him as you please, I've had enough of this fool."

At those words, Ichigo felt like he was drowning, there was no relief from the suffocation that he felt. His throat was constricting and he couldn’t breathe anymore. Even if this was just a nightmare, those words hurt him even more than Aizen's actions had. God, he wanted to die. If his brother saw him right now, he would tell him just how pathetic he was, letting the darkness in heart take over.

His eyes dulled as he laid down and waited for the inevitable. If his husband didn't even care if he had sex with Aizen, why should he? Why should he keep fighting? Why should he keep on living?

He could feel himself already falling, and instead of fighting it, he let go; hoping that he wouldn’t wake up and instead just wither away into darkness.

A/N: So, what do you think? If you want to know what happens at the trial, I'm going to write a chapter about it in the deleted scenes; so you can check it out if you want! XD Please review!
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