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Silent Tears	By : AidaLily Category: Bleach > AU - Alternate Universe Views: 2960 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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Chapter List
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I do not own Bleach.

Warning: Heavily Implied 'Fun' Time

Me: *sighs* now that holidays and things are over I can get back to writing and typing up all the stories I am working on and need to finish.

Random fan: Its about damn time.

Me: *raises eyebrow* I could wait longer, but I plan to finish this before the end of March.

Random fan: Does that mean more updates?

Me: Of course.

Random fan: Good. Anything we should know for this chapter?

Me: Um...well...Just read it. This is the first chapter after the turn around. In about two or three chapters I believe Renji and Byakuya will be together.

Random fan: Meh. I just want to see Byakuya and Ukitake get whats coming to them. Please enjoy the fic.

Me: *sweat drops* they will sheesh...

Time: 12PM

Place: 6th division training grounds

The wind blew gently across their faces, but did nothing to hide the hurt they both felt. Renji was at a complete loss. He knew that the man before him betrayed him and slept with another guy, but in all honesty and according to Byakuya who had never lied to him, it was after Toshiro had caught him with Jushiro. What could he possibly say to him to make Toshiro forgive him? More or less after the events that transpired in his office just a little earlier did he even deserve Toshiro's forgiveness? His thoughts flashed briefly to Byakuya's pained expression before he left his office and then could only imagine Toshiro feeling the exact same way. When it came down to it, this whole thing he felt was his fault.

He had agreed to date and marry Toshiro.

He had kissed Byakuya, not once, but twice while the man was in another relationship and he was with Toshiro.

He had slept with Ukitake and hurt them both wanting and not wanting to which caused them to find comfort in each other.

And now he had to face the consequences of his actions.

Renji looked at Toshiro and without words asked him to follow. It wouldn't be good to be airing their private affairs all over Seireitei, not for Byakuya, Toshiro, or Ukitake. At one time three proud captains, and now they were all mixed up in some love square that involved Renji, the street rat from Rukongai. He was starting to wonder if other nobles had it right in the first place, like the elders of Byakuya's clan council. He was wondering if he were truly the black sheep, he was once thought out to be. So what if he made it to lieutenant and then captain? So what if he was one of the strongest in Seireitei? What did it all mean when his very being caused so much pain and suffering? He was sure if Rukia wasn't on maternity leave she would castrate him for what he has done.

The walk back to Renji's room in the barracks of the sixth division was heavy with unspoken words of self loathing and disgust. However from which of the two shinigami it was uncertain. After opening the door and letting Toshiro inside, Renji cast a kido on the room making it sound proof to all outside. Toshiro went and sat on the bed in the room. This room was used in case the captain needed to rest for one reason or another. Renji remained standing not sure if he should even sit by his fiance.

"You slept with him.", came the soft and yet hurt words from Toshiro.

"I...I didn't mean to, Toshiro. I don't even remember how it happened in the first place.", came Renji's response.

Toshiro nodded not meeting Renji's eyes. He felt hurt, betrayed and strange. He wasn't sure what the strange feeling was, but now was not the time to explore it. He would reflect on it later and maybe it could give him some clues as to the nagging feeling that he had.

"Toshiro...I'm sorry.", Renji said taking a step closer to him.

Toshiro shook his head. "Don't come any closer Renji.", Toshiro said looking up at him with sadness and...regret? "I...I slept with Byakuya. I had seen you with Jushiro and I was hurt and upset. I didn't think... I never thought... either of you would do that to me.", he said feeling as broken as he sounded. "Regardless, for me to sleep with Jushiro's lover and the one that you want was wrong of me."

Renji looked shocked. Toshiro shouldn't be apologizing. This was all his fault. He had thought after the way Byakuya treated him, the way that most treated him following Byakuya, and more that he would be over the ever stoic captain. Then again Byakuya was hardly like that anymore especially around Captain Ukitake. However, he couldn't let Toshiro think he needed to apologize for this. Renji knew he was nothing but trash, and he could not... no he would not let Toshiro think this way. He crossed the short distance to Toshiro and before the other could protest he wrapped his arms around him.

"Don't... Don't think that way Toshiro. You had every right to do what you did after what you saw. You trusted me and you made me happy. You saw me as more than what I was made out to be. You did so much for me Toshiro and I...ugh...I don't even remember what happened. I remember drinking tea with Jushiro while Byakuya left to get something and then I remember Jushiro having an attack. I went to help him and then nothing.", Renji groaned in frustration.

Toshiro blinked. "An attack?", he asked slowly.

"Yes, we were drinking tea and then he had one of his attacks. As I said, I don't remember what happened after that or how the hell I ended up in bed with him.", Renji said to him.

Toshiro closed his eyes and nodded. "I see. I love you Renji. I honestly do and I always will, but I think we should end this. We should be with the ones that we really want. Though how to make them want us, I am not so sure how to do.", he said softly turning towards Renji.

Renji nodded once in agreement. "You are right Toshiro. Why are you not more mad at me though?", he asked upset that he was losing Toshiro and at the same time a bit happy to try for Byakuya again even if the man wanted nothing to do with him.

"Because Renji we were both wrong. Not even with just the cheating on each other. Be honest with me, Renji, when you heard I slept with Byakuya, were you upset because your fiance slept with Byakuya or were you more upset Byakuya slept with me?", Toshiro asked displaying the maturity of someone a lot older than he was.

"I...I don't know.", Renji answered shamefully and honestly.

"Neither do I. How can I be mad at someone when I do not even know the answer to the same question from my perspective?", Toshiro asked looking at him. "I do have one regret though. I was never able to make you truly smile again."

Renji loooked at Toshiro blinking a few times before laughing. He bent down a bit and kissed Toshiro softly on the lips allowing himself to fully enjoy the simple action before pulling away with a genuine smile that made warmth swell in Toshiro's chest. "I'll always smile for the one who pulled me out of the darkness, because even though we are parting now. I will still love my Toshiro."

"Renji...", Toshiro said with his mouth partially open in awe before he closed his eyes and smiled. "Thank you." The two sat there for a moment in silence before Renji went to take off his engagement ring. "No", Toshiro said stopping him. "Keep it. In the meantime, want to come to my place for dinner? We have a lot to plan if we want to get them. Shouldn't be too hard. I told Byakuya what I saw, so I doubt their relationship is sunshine and roses at the moment."

"Alright. I will see you at seven.", Renji said to him giving him one last squeeze before they got up and parted ways.

Time: 4PM

Place: Ukitake's house

To say that after the office incident, Byakuya was avoiding Ukitake would have been an understatement and it had only been a few hours. However, it was proper to tell your partner in crime how well things were working. So here they were sitting in the kitchen drinking tea and looking at one another. Ukitake's mind was still on his conversation with Shunsui and Byakuya's still on the fact that Renji confessed, apologized and kissed him. For a long moment, it was so quiet one could hear a pin drop.

"So how was your day Jushiro?", Byakuya asked him with a small smile.

"It was interesting to say the least. I got only half my work done considering a surprise visit and conversation with Shunsui left me somewhat unsettled.", Jushiro said to him with his trademark smile.

"Oh? May I ask what it was about? He wasn't giving you details was he?", Byakuya asked mildly amused.

Jushiro chuckled. "No, not that. I think I would have ended up fighting him if he tried that. No, he was telling me that our plan seems to be working nicely and that he feels we, or at least I, have bitten off more than one can chew.", he said sipping his tea. "How did it go with telling Renji the 'news'?"

"Well besides an unexpected scenario, I believe it went really well.", Byakuya said to him.

Jushiro froze for a second, facial expression darkening, before he sighed and closed his eyes. "What happened? I was sure we planned out for everything.", he said though somewhere in his mind told him he didn't want to hear it.

"After I had told Renji about what happened between Toshiro and I, he asked me why I did it. I told him what Toshiro told me after he 'caught' you two and Renji apologized which we had accounted for. However, when I went to leave he stopped me and wrapped his arms around me. He apologized again to both Toshiro and me, confessed that he cared for me while holding me in such a loving embrace, and then he spun me around and kissed me. Since I was not expecting it, I almost blew our entire plan right there.", Byakuya said to him for some reason feeling too guilty to reach his eyes.

"I see. So it worked and you got a kiss from Renji.", Jushiro said in a calm measured tone that caused Byakuya to look at him almost apologetically. "Well that is good. That means everything can go as planned. I...please give me a moment. I shall be right back."

Byakuya watched him leave the room, knowing he was upset, and nearly crumbled at the table. This shouldn't hurt. So why did it? He felt a tear slide down his face and shocked he touched the moisture there. He wanted to scream. This wasn't supposed to be real, none of it was real. It was just the way they used to be able to get Toshiro and Renji. He did this all because he wanted Renji. Renji... This was all for Renji.

A small voice in the back of Byakuya's mind spoke out then. 'If this was all for Renji, why does knowing Jushiro is upset hurt so much?'

It doesn't matter, Byakuya thought to himself. Once I have Renji, I will forget all about this.

Jushiro was in his room and threw one of his pillows at a wall. Their plan was working. This was fantastic and soon he would be with his rightful lover again and yet he felt hurt. When Byakuya told him that, the only thought was how the hell could Byakuya kiss Renji? It made sense. It was their plan and it was hurting him more than anticipated. After all, leaving one's lover was always hard, but he had done it to get Toshiro. He wanted Toshiro and needed to small white haired captain. This wasn't real. Nothing between him and Byakuya was real.

A small voice in the back of Jushiro's mind spoke out then. 'If nothing between you was real, why do you feel like he betrayed you by kissing Renji today?'

It doesn't matter, Jushiro though to himself. Once I have Toshiro, I will wake up from this dream.

Time: 8PM

Place: Toshiro's apartment

They had just finished eating dinner and were sipping cups of tea as they talked about their plans. In their eyes, Byakuya and Jushiro were like a power couple. One of the oldest captains and the captain commander together and seemingly inseparable. The only thing they had going for them was the fact that both had slept with one of them which meant that the other two should be on the rocks at the moment. It gave them perfect opportunity, though they had to make it where it didn't seem like they planned this all out. After all just going up to them would be a bad idea. It would make it seem like they planned to seduce them to break them apart and then how would a relationship work out like that.

Renji set his cup down. They had been planning for an hour and he was a bit tired. "I say let's take a break for a bit so we do not exhaust our minds. I will speak to Ura..actually you go speak to Urahara tomorrow. I am sure he can give up the things that we need. I'd go, but he annoys the hell out of me.", Renji said to Toshiro.

"No problem. I will just tell my captain I have some business to take care of. It should be easy enough to do so.", Toshiro said to him.

"Yeah. Hopefully this works and maybe being with them will give us a chance to sort out our own feelings.", Renji said to him.

"I am sure that we will.", Toshiro said and then got up taking his cup into the kitchen and Renji followed him. It didn't seem any different than two friends spending time together. Toshiro turned around and bumped into Renji accidentally and he looked up to apologize.

Renji blinked and looked down at Toshiro. Before either of them could comprehend what was going on, they were both holding on to each other kissing feverishly. Clothes were taken off all through the house as they made their way to Toshiro's bedroom holding on to each other. Renji laid Toshiro down on the other's bed proceeding to kiss and lick all over his now ex-lover's body. Toshiro moaned hands reaching up and ripping the damn hair tie out of Renji's hair letting it fall over him. Moments later moans and screams of pleasure were heard through the apartment.

Time: 10 PM

Renji and Toshiro laid on his bed resting. They had both gone at it for an hour and a half. By the end of the fifth round both finally decided it was enough and now laid there when Renji spoke up.

"Toshiro...", Renji said to him yawning.

"Yes Renji?", Toshiro answered sleepily. Renji had taken him three times and he had taken Renji once.

"We are supposed to be figuring out how to get Byakuya and Jushiro, correct?", he asked snuggling with Toshiro more and closing his eyes.

"Correct.", Toshiro said enjoying the warmth of Renji.

"Thats what I thought. Now this might sound a bit strange and trust me I enjoyed all of that, but how the hell is us screwing each other supposed to help get them? No offense, but that sounds like the most idiotic thing ever.", Renji said shifting a bit. "Its like I want this person, you want that person, so the logical way to go about this is to of course have sex with each other. Who on earth would be idiotic enough to think something like that would work?"

Toshiro giggled. "Well when you put it that way. It does sound pretty well... stupid. However, I can't deny you are a fantastic bed partner. So we just wont tell anyone. I could only imagine Byakuya and Jushiro finding out and then laughing at us for it. They would never plan to break people up and then sleep with the person they are planning with. I guess it just shows how young we are.", he said to him.

"Yeah, you're right. Lets hope they never find out." Renji said to Toshiro giving him a kiss on his forehead before they both went to sleep.

Well there you have it. Chapter 17 of Silent Tears. This fic has a total of 30-32 chapters depending on if I combine a couple chapters. That last part at 10PM was added because my friend told me the chapter needed a little more. And yes, for all those who were waiting for it, Byakuya and Ukitake will be getting at least a portion of what they deserve for what they have done. Thank you. All threats go in the complaint box. Have a nice day.
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