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The Wolf and the Demon	By : Zarakiswolf Category: Bleach > AU - Alternate Universe Views: 2172 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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I'm eating breakfast slowly, my thoughts clouding my mind with idiotic ideas. He didn't get angry when I told him I love him. In fact, he'd said he wasn't letting me go anywhere because it would piss him off...is that a round about way of him saying he loves me? Or am I trying to read between the lines where nothing is written? I think the latter is the correct option, of course. Nobody can love me. It's just not fate's design for me to ever be loved.
"If you don't quit bein' depressed I'm gunna kick your ass, you moody damn thing." Zaraki snaps from beside me. "Eat your breakfast."
"Sorry. My mind is being noisy today, Captain." I excuse myself. I can see he's not buying it. "When can we spar again? I'm bored, sir."
"That what all that damn sighin' is about? You're bored?"
I latch onto the excuse with both hands and nod vigorously. "Yes. I'm bored. I hate paperwork and I have nothing else to do. I need something to keep my brain occupied so it's not bothering me. Sometimes, I wish I could just cut it the hell out so I can't think about shit all the time."
He looks at me keenly. Oops. I've said too much. "What'd Kotetsu say yesterday?"
"Well, she said I was still a little underweight but nothing as serious as before. She didn't say I could but she didn't say I couldn't either."
"How much?"
"Huh?"
"How far underweight are you?"
"I don't remember. Actually, I don't think she told me."
He grunts. "I'll send her a message to clarify. I can't fight you if you ain't at your best and bein' underweight means you ain't there. You're with men now, no women to go easy on you. They outweigh you, it'll cause you to be beaten that much quicker."
I growl and stab my fork into my plate. "I'm not a fucking piece of glass, Captain. I can fight just fine."
"Mouth off again, Wolf. Dare you." he growls back. "I'm tryin' to keep you from gettin' your ass beat."
"You're an overprotective dumbass that's pissing me off!" I yell angrily before getting to my feet and storming outside. Why can't he understand? Fighting is what I live for. Denying me those fights is killing me inside. I just want to be free to fight. I throw myself under the cherry tree by the office and glare at the fish in the pond. "Men are stupid, mom." I mumble before leaning my head back against the tree.
***Memory***
"Hello, Harmona...you seem upset." a female says behind me.
I know that voice. "Mommy?"
"Shh. You can't let anyone know I'm here, darling. I know your father is out. Shunsui told me to come see you while the squad is out training. I brought you something."
I turn to her. "Why can't you be my mommy? It's not fair. Why does everyone hate me?" I say, wiping my eyes again.
"I know it's hard. I wish I could defy Yamamoto's orders but, for your safety, I can't."
"He's a grouchy old fogey." I pout.
Her laugh makes me smile a little. She walks closer and hands me something wrapped in a wet cloth. "Let's bury it together. That way you will always have me here in a way."
"What is it?"
"A seed for a tree. I think it would look beautiful overlooking the pond when it grows." she says, holding her hand out to me. She frowns a little when I flinch. "Harmona, I won't hurt you." I refuse her hand and walk to the pond. She follows and stops in a place half way between the office and the pond. "Here, sweetheart."
I start digging the wet ground by hand. Thankfully it rained last night so it's easy to dig. Her hands join mine in the digging. They brush mine every now and again but I make no sign that I notice. The times of her being able to come see me are rare. She knows I won't speak to daddy about it. I remain mute to everyone but Shunsui, Jushiro and her. And they keep it to themselves that I speak too. It's our little secret
It takes a little while but we finally have a hole deep enough and I plant the seed tenderly. "Will it grow up tomorrow?"
She laughs softly. "No, it'll take a little while to come up. Maybe a couple years."
I frown. "Mommy...am I a bad girl?"
"No, darling. You're not bad."
"Daddy says I am."
"Your daddy is....not who you think he is. It'll be ok. This will be over soon, darling. Keep your chin up."
I surprise her with a hug. "I don't wanna have kids, mommy. I don't wanna fall in love either. The world is a terrible place. Love gives someone power over you to hurt you. I don't wanna be a weapon and I don't wanna be hurt by love. I'd rather die."
"Don't say that! You'll find someone to love you some day."
"No. I don't want to. I have Okami. I don't need anybody else." I sigh as I feel daddy coming back. "You should go before daddy gets back. He'll hurt me if you're here when he gets back."
She kisses my forehead gently. "Don't lose hope." she whispers before disappearing with shunpo. I wish I could do that. But, like everything else, I'm a failure at that. Daddy makes fun of me because I can't use kido either. I'm useless without a sword...
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"The Hell is with you and this damn tree, woman?" Zaraki growls.
"Go away. You've pissed me off." I growl, refusing to look at him.
I hear a whistle and roll out of the way. Some bark off my tree falls to the ground and I stare at him, furious. "Quit bein' a bitch. You can fight me when you ain't so fuckin' weak." he snaps.
I don't think. Just spring into action. My reiatsu flares violently and I tackle him, sending us into a roll away from the tree. My nails grow longer and turn silver while I feel my ears shift and my tail grow. This is rare. "Stay the fuck away from my tree or I'll kill you, you bastard." I snarl venomously. I get off his chest and stomp back to my tree before turning and staring him down.
"Captain, what's going...what the hell?" Ikkaku asks, running to Zaraki, who's staring at me in shock. I didn't hurt him, obviously. He sits up and his face falls to one I'm familiar with. He's thinking about how to win this fight.
"Ikkaku, I think we need to cut that tree down. Take away her security blanket." he says.
"You try it, you bald fucking bastard, I'll kill you too." I spit, my reiatsu skyrocketing as rage threatens to take over.
Zaraki gets to his feet and draws his sword. "You wanna fight so bad, come on, bitch. I'll prove to you that you're not ready. No shikai and no bankai needed."
"Fine, asshole."
I disappear.
****Kenpachi POV****
The hell kinda trick is this. One minute she was there, the next she's gone. And what the fuck is up with that tree? I look around for her and, not seein' her, nearly put Nozarashi back. My back erupts in blood and fire suddenly, causing me to whirl instead. She catches the blade in the hip but doesn't seem to care. She pulls herself off of it. One of her eyes is yellow. I ain't dealin' with just her. She grabs my wrist and the amount of reiatsu she's puttin' out damn if she ain't burnin' me. I lose focus for an instant and she manages to pull me forward and hit me in the jaw with a fist. I hear bone split but my jaw ain't hurtin' bad enough for it to be me. She darts back, doesn't even look at her hand. I can see it's swellin' already. "That's why I said you ain't ready, dipshit." I growl.
"I'm not a fucking weakling, goddamn it! Fight me! Just because I'm not a wolf doesn't make it any different than before, you fucking coward!" her voice is different. Normally, her voice is like silk in my ears. I like hearin' it. This is raisin' goosebumps on my arms. It's like a growl and a hiss at the same time. Evil.
I give her what she wants, chargin' forward and swingin' at her. She dodges one, takes the next though only barely. It becomes a game. This. This is how fights should be. She manages to slide under my arm and those damn claws tear into my side, shreddin' uniform and skin, even muscle. I let an elbow fly, catchin' her in the cheek and knockin' her flyin'. She gets right back to her feet, those damn wolf ears twitchin'. That wolf...it ain't her shikai. She comes at me again, almost too fast for my eye to follow, her fists movin' in a flurry. I'm gettin' hit more often than I can block. She's fuckin' fast. I mange to catch one of her fists and end up gettin' kicked in the side of the head. She's startin' to piss me off. I catch her ankle when she aims a kick again and throw her. She hits the wall of the barracks and drops.
****Harmona POV****
I play dead, though I can hear them laughing. Some of the men are cheering me on though. That's a first. I hear Zaraki walking closer. "See? I told you. You ain't ready for a fight on my level, woman." he says before leaning over and grabbing the back of my shihakushou. I move quickly, laying his cheek open and knocking him flying with a kick to the chest. Fuck him and his rules. I'm perfectly fine.
Zaraki sits up and wipes the blood from his cheek. It doesn't stop though. Bits of flesh hang there. The sight dampens my rage. He glares at me and I kneel, putting my face against the ground. I feel my ears and tail go back to normal. "I'm sorry, Captain."
"We're fightin'. Get your ass up." he orders. I stand again but I can't look him in the eye. He comes at me and I flinch, but refuse to protect myself. The blade of his sword hits me, slicing through my arm and stopping on the bone. This makes him pause. "You givin' up?"
"You're right...I'm not ready." I admit quietly.
He pulls his sword out of my arm and grabs my chin, tilting my head up to look at him. "The hell happened? You were doin' good."
"I just realized you're right. I'm malnurished and my bones aren't holding up to the impact of hitting your block headed self." I lie.
"You suck at lyin'."
"I'm not lying. Captain, I'll wait til I get stronger then kick your ass. Just...please, don't cut that tree down. That's the only thing I have left of her." I plead weakly, blinking so the tears don't fall.
"I won't hurt your tree." he says softly. "If you tell me why you really stopped."
"I...it hurts me to hurt you. I'm sorry."
"You fuckin' idiot. You can't back out of a fight just because it makes you feel bad." he growls.
"I only feel bad because it's you, you moron. You took me in and helped me. This was no way to repay you."
He sighs. "Go clean yourself up. You're wearin' your heart on your sleeve. Careful it doesn't get stabbed."
I nod. "Captain...you'd be better off with me dead. I want you to know that."
"Yeah, with you bein' a weaklin' right now, I would be." he growls before releasing me. I stare at my feet as I walk back to my tree. I refuse to let Okami heal my arm. I need the pain right now.
****Kenpachi POV****
I watch her. Somethin' is very wrong. Her arm and the other cuts ain't healin'. "Ikkaku."
"Sir?" he says, walking over to me from where he was watchin'.
"I'm gunna go get my face healed. Keep an eye on her. Somethin' ain't right."
"Yes, sir."
"See if you can get her to tell you what's botherin' her. Obviously somethin' is." I order before leavin'.
***Harmona POV***
"Hey, Wolf. Mind if I bandage those for you?" Yumichika asks softly.
"Ok." I say quietly.
He sits next to me but doesn't do anything. "Why do you look so sad?"
"My mother helped me plant this tree. It's all I have left of her." I reply.
"And?"
"And he killed her. I'm so confused, Yumichika. She was my mom and yet she wasn't allowed to be. He kills her and I fucking love him. I feel like I'm a terrible person."
"Wait, you love our captain?"
"Don't act surprised. I've been fighting it for a year now but I lost."
"Oh, my dear, that's nothing to be ashamed of by any means. He may not be beautiful like you and I but he is a very drawing personality. We all love him in a way. Not your way, obviously, but we're deeply loyal to him. As for him killing your mother, it was a necessary evil. It still haunts him I think. She was someone he looked up to as a child, you see. She was the reason he took the name Kenpachi. He had no name before then."
I nod. "Why does having a heart have to be such a pain." I sigh.
"It's a gift and a burden. However, you're not a terrible person for loving the man who killed your mother. They went into the fight knowing only one would come out and that it had to be him. She did what she knew was best to save everyone."
"She didn't bother trying to save me as a child. Why save thousands of strangers and not her own child? That still hurts."
"Perhaps she knew you were still alive and, not being able to find you, she decided saving the world so you could survive was the best she could do."
I stare at the pond and sigh. "Maybe."
He gives me a gentle pat on the back. "You'll figure it out."
I get to my feet. "Let's go get me bandaged. Okami is sleeping so I can't heal right now."
"Good idea."
****Kenpachi POV***
"She did this? With her zanpakutou?" Isane asks.
"Not exactly. Her sword turned into a wicked set of claws on her hand so she did it with her hand." I grumble.
"Why?"
"We had a fight. I was gunna come talk to you anyway but my dumb ass told her she ain't allowed to fight til I get the ok from you. I don't think she should just yet. She broke somethin' just punchin' me in the jaw."
She frowns. "I forgot to tell her not to fight for at least another couple weeks and I want her on calcium and iron suppliments. Her levels were way low. Kenpachi, she refused birth control too."
"She says her sword will tell her if she's in heat or whatever."
"She's in no shape to get pregnant."
"I know that and don't want any damn kids anyway. Lay off."
"I mean it. Not only physically but mentally, she's not ok. She's putting on a show. I really think she needs a mental evaluation done. Staying in her shikai for two hundred years is unheard of."
"It ain't her shikai. I don't know what it is but that wolf ain't part of her sword."
"Just please, don't hurt her. She may say she's not but her mental state is very fragile. Everything is new to her, even having someone to care about her."
"I don't care about her." I scoff.
She blinks at me. "Then why have sex with her?"
"Cause it feels good." I shrug.
"You're a jerk, Kenpachi. A real bonafide jerk. Hopefully she sees that and runs away from you as fast as her legs can take her."
"I won't let her."
"You can't keep her around just for sex. You'll hurt her worse than the abuse in her childhood, you heartless jerk!"
"Relax. I'm still figurin' things out. I like her, alright, but I don't know shit about love or carin'."
"I wanna hit you."
"Do it. I'll fight ya."
"Yeah and kill me deader than a doornail. Just try to be good to her, ok? She deserves that at least."
"Yeah yeah, whatever. Can I go now?"
"You're terrible. Scram. Your bad vibes are messing up my peaceful infirmary."
I chuckle. "She'd have been proud of you, Isane."
"Oh, shut up. Get lost."
****Harmona POV****
I'm sitting on the bed drawing when I hear the door open. I don't want to look up but I do. His cheek is healed completely. "I'm really sorry." I say quietly.
"Stop. Injuries happen in a fight, dumbass. No need to apologize for it. Why aren't you healed?"
I look back down at my paper. "I'm fine."
"Didn't ask if you were fine, did I?"
"I won't let Okami heal them. I like pain, alright?"
"Oh yeah? So I don't need to be gentle with you anymore, huh?"
"What? Since when are you gentle?"
"I've always been gentle with you."
"You're so full of shit it's leaking from your ears."
He pounces on me, causing me to drop my pen and sketch pad. His mouth covers mine, demanding. I refuse to give in. He's violent, biting my lip hard enough to draw blood. I can't stop the moan that erupts from me. His hands lift me so I'm sitting in his lap before grabbing ahold of the back of my shihakushou and tearing it off me. I have a moment of irritation, as I'll need to get more, but he doesn't stop. His hips grind into mine. He's hard as a rock already. His mouth leaves mine suddenly and latches onto my neck, biting down hard and flicking his tongue over a spot that makes me hot. "Oh fuck! Kenpachi!"
"You're gunna wait til I say so, since you don't like to listen." he growls before biting me again.
"Please, let me touch you!"
"I said that for two years. So you can wait."
"I don't want to!"
"Waiting for shit seems to be a big problem for you."
"Please!" He ignores me, one hand hitting my ass as hard as possible, causing my back to arch toward him, which puts my breasts in line with his mouth. He bites one, his tongue massaging it playfully. His hand takes possession of the other one, kneading it like a giant cat. I rub against him, needing the friction. "Kenpachi, please! I need you." I whine, shoving my hands into the wide neck of his uniform, caressing his skin.
"Do you? Huh? Do you need me, Wolf? You were so willin' to fight me earlier and threaten to kill me." he growls.
"I'm going to smother you with my boobs. If all you're going to do is tease me then let me go."
He puts me down on my back and stands, removing his haori and shihakushou quickly. He strokes himself a couple times, which makes me hotter. "You wanna be a wolf, I'll fuck you like one. Get on your hands and knees."
I hurry to do as he's ordered. Within seconds he's inside me, driving deep, his hands gripping my hips tight and pulling me back as he thrusts forward each time. "Kenpachi!"
"You like bein' fucked like this? You're powerless to stop me in this position. Maybe that's why it feels so fuckin' good!"
He's an idiot.
****Kenpachi POV****
I'm caught off guard when she springs backwards, head buttin' me in the chin which knocks me on my back, though she falls with me. She props herself up on her hands, her knees folded up by my sides. "You were saying?" she teases.
"I'm still inside you. So you didn't stop me."
"Maybe I don't want to."
I get back to poundin' into her, my hands flyin' up to play with her tits. Damn this woman. I'm addicted to her just as much as I'm addicted to fightin'. Her body was made for me. Fuck she feels amazin'. She won't be goin' anywhere, no matter what. I don't care if she can never fight again. She still has that damn mouth and this hot pussy. That's entertainment enough for me. Her arms slowly give out, leavin' her layin' on me. I slide a hand down her body, findin' her clit and stokin' it. She moans loud, her back archin' off me a little.
"Don't fight this, Wolf. You can fight me on everythin' else. Not this." I moan as she clamps on me, makin' herself even tighter on my dick.
"Kenpachi!"
Her scream makes my ears ring but fuck! I feel my cock expel it's contents as she drowns it. She's fuckin' perfect for me. And her arm is bleedin' on me, as is her hip. I push her into a sittin' position. "Let him heal you, Wolf. Your iron levels are low enough without losin' all this blood."
"Don't wanna. Physical pain is better than emotional pain, Kenpachi."
I frown. Isane was right. She's not ok in the head. "Talk to me, Wolf. What's botherin' you?" I ask, liftin' her off of me. She ignores me for a few minutes as she crawls back to her spot and goes back to drawin'. I'm half tempted to yell at her when she finally sighs.
"I'm confused."
"About?"
"Us. You killed my mother. I know it was for a good reason, but still. She wasn't allowed to raise me. The last time I ever spent time with her was when we planted that cherry tree when I was eight. After that...she never came around again. I love her and hate her too. You killed her and I love you. I feel like a horrible person for loving my mother's killer."
"I had to." I say defensively.
"I know. I don't know why I even care. She didn't care enough about me to save me but yet she cared enough to let herself die in order for you to help save the human world and Soul Society. I just wish I could've been important enough to save."
There it is. That's why she hates people so much. Because her mom didn't choose to save her, she chose to save everybody else. Damn if that ain't a kick in the teeth for her. The one person who was supposed to love her and keep her safe left her to be treated like shit and die a little more inside each day. "You are."
"Am what?"
"Important enough to save. To me anyway."
"You just like me for my body." she scoffs, though I hear a hint of worry.
"No, Wolf. I like you for you. You had a shitty start in life but you survived and got damn strong. You didn't let it beat you into submission like every other woman would've."
"But you don't love me and never will."
"Is that what you want from me?"
"It doesn't matter what I want, Kenpachi."
I pull myself up and steal her pen and paper, settin' them on my nightstand before takin' her in my arms. "I don't know what love is, Wolf. I don't know the first thing about it. I do know that I care about your moody ass. That's the best I can do for now. That's why I won't let you fight. I know you aren't ready. You're so damn malnurished that's why your bones broke so damn easy. I don't want anythin' to happen to you."
She stays silent for a little while. "That's the mushiest thing you've ever said. You must be getting old, Captain." she teases.
I smirk. There's my woman. "You're older than me, Wolf."
"True."
"Must be why you're so cranky." And she hits me in the gut, makin' me grunt. Fuckin' brat. I wouldn't change a damn thing about her other than the moodiness. She's got a lot to be moody about though. I lay down with her on my stomach, just holdin' her and rubbin' her back gently. I notice when she goes to sleep. It's the middle of the damn day but I don't mind a nap. "I think I might be startin' to love you, Wolf." I mumble before closin' my eyes and lettin' sleep come over me too.
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